As I sit comfortably at my computer and write this note to you, I am struck by the changes that have occurred in my life in the last six months. The last time I recorded these short love notes to you,my friends, was in January, and I was very ill. So ill, in fact, that I didn't realize how sick I was. I am amazed at the person I was then. Amazed at the strength, determination and love of family and love of God, that woman exhibited. It was this love that kept me going day after day, trying to keep my secret, my facade of wellness and competency. I have apologized to my loved ones for my misdirected love, and caring protection for them.
I can't change what was done, and the facts of what is today. I can only go on from here, from this new place of love, caring and trust for my loved ones.Time will tell the lessons I have learned, and am still learning, as I gain strenght and wellness, in the loving circle of my family and friends. Their prayers and love have sustained and healed me, and I am forever greatful to them for my new lease on life.Thru 3 hospitalizations, 2 surgeries, 6 weeks of radiation treatments, and many, many visits to the doctors, always the loving acceptance and prayers of family and friends, have given me life and courage, and I owe them all a debt of gratitude forever.
I dedicate my new healthy life to continuous learning and healing.
Join me in love and healing
Ollie Rae
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